So now what,
I don't have any kids, My family can live by themselves I believe. My parents are old, and Time is ticking loudly before them or me leave each other.
So not that big of a responsibility, so I don't have something to worry nothing emmidiate.
Might be one of the reason why I feel uncomfortable because I have less to work on.
hhmmm, but what I have in mind that I think is the reason why I'm uncomfortable is, the things I am avoiding. Okay I need to list this things that I am avoiding. TODO: ahhaah list please.
I need to talk about this first, about the idea of giving myself a responsibility like having a child or marrying someone.
I believe it can help, like if I have real problem I have now topmost priority that overweighs everthing I'm worried now. I have lesser reason to avoid doing it since it is so important.
I'm scared to that actually. because it will close all other potential.
I know, I know that for a potential to actually happen the rest all the rest is sacrificed, in a way.