Journey In Understanding Current Self.
I'm writing this in record multiple and continious attempt to understand self.
I keep finding source of emotional support I can't seem be settled. I tried to open this to mother, but next day to that she goes back to not care emotionally, she think financially is enough.
tried to to share to everyone else. I know that its me who can help myself, but its a continous struggle.
I believe if I'm able to make my job stable that will stabilize everything.
But I came to think now that, what if I don't have a job, so I'll get this unstable problem, but it's what it should be. But I'm unconfortable in a different way.
So its normal to feel unstable if not having a job, or not having other ways to learn. hhmm having a job is like having a different porpuse other than learning, but its also the way of learning. So gonna take advantage of it.
There its weird to think that very interesting thought that as a human its obliged to learn, and thats it, continously.
And there's this money, a tool and we're in continous effort to get that, which also unintentionally make use "learn".
The term "Learn" here is everything from Learn to survive and Learn some interesting discoveries that are not necesarrily to survive, but potentially.